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I enjoy watching movies bout war especially those that involved with China. Those day, where Japan do whatever it takes to bring down China. In those movies, it projects how they use amazing technique to fight against the enemy. Man full with wisdom, the ability for them to be able to read the next moves of their enemy, think ahead of them and come out with brilliant technique that win it all. That’s warzone battle field. Today, we still struggles war, still in our battle zone. But today, we’re all fighting our own battle field not necessary the physical warzone but the battle field of our mind. Everyone have their own battle to fight everyday of our life. Are we ready for our battle? Are we fit enough to walk through the battle field of today? My warzone feels so real at this very moment. I feel as if I’m in a different battle field everyday. I ask God to give me strength to live through my today, one day at a time. Strength enough battle today’s battle, wisdom to have the right technique to deal with different matter and people. What is your battle field? Are you gear up to fight? Full armor of God. That is what I need in order to fight in this battle field. Stand your ground, putting on the belt of truth and the body armor of God’s righteousness. For shoes, put on the peace that comes from the Good News so that you will be fully prepared. In addition to all of these, hold up the shield of faith to stop the fiery arrows of the devil. Put on salvation as your helmet, and take the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God. Pray in the Spirit at all times and on every occasion. Stay alert and be persistent in your prayers for all believers everywhere. Hold on and fight a good fight of faith.

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To one, this life sucks. To some, it is all about fighting for a better life. What is life to you?

Being on a plan, on not sure how many feet above the ground, given me the opportunity to enjoy and appreciate the amazing view of once in a life time.

Staring as such beauty, makes me wonder about my life. Reflect back how life have been and how it was. Thankful for the fact that I’m on a plane now, thankful that i actually have the opportunity to do so. Thankful that life have not been super well for me through out all these years. Only in one month, i can experience the so called worst season in my life to the best. A mixture it is in this life. I wonder, how have yours been?

Sometimes, it is just not easy to pass by that day to day journey, the hard times that i have to go through, it was so hard that i could not sleep at night and first thing comes to mind is more trouble in the morning. Sometimes, i wish tomorrow doesn’t come so soon as if i can predict that it will be a challenging one. Well indeed it was a challenging one. But it was all just yesterday now. All good.

Funny how things can pass by so fast but at that very moment days can be so draggy. Now that one challenge has pass, the fact that I’m able to be on the plane enjoying the amazing view, enjoying time to pass just at the speed that it is created, enjoyed my trip somewhere around the globe. Having able to write again, I’m thankful.

Thankful for the good times in life, thankful for the not bad but challenging times in life. Not saying that my life is so good that there’s no bad, but maybe it’s not bad, it’s just challenging. So challenging that one case is enough to break you down to the lowest point. But, without that challenge, i would not have learn from it. I would not have appreciate the opposite of it, i would not be writting now. I’m thankful that God is so gracious to bring me through the challenging times in life from one stage to another, from this season to the next. Thankful that He’s with me all the time even as I enjoy the amazing times in life, for every laughter, for every smiles, for every love i experience in different ways with different people.

Yes, life is challenging. But with God, everything is possible. I’m simply amazed by how my life was and how it is now. Simply amazing. Thank You God.

I’m thankful.

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Born sinner. Not perfect, never will. That’s me. One thing that I always have to remind myself is that I’m not perfect, cannot expect myself to do no wrong. Learn from mistake. But what if I didn’t do anything wrong?

Experiencing people throwing their unkind words towards me is not something new. The feeling is like people throwing stone on you. People who try to bring you down because you’re not doing things according to their way. Saying things behind your back and demand on you when you’re around. Headache + heartache. Asking God for His grace in learning not to be bothered by it, trying hard to adjust myself to not to get use to it but to learn from it. It looks and feels pretty hard at this moment.

Knowing my mission on earth at this season in life, and giving my very best and have God’s will to be done on me. This, this is one of the many things that i have to learn. I often ask, God, how long can I go on like this? How long is this path? I’m not sure how long can I stand.

My pastor always reminds me to stay close with God and only by God’s grace. Only by His grace we can move on, go on step by step. She not only teach me that, her life is a book of testimony to me. Her life reflect what she teach and speak. Living by grace from day to day. One aunty reminded me of forgiveness. Always forgive as how Christ has forgiven us. We’re all indeed, just sinners. I need to be forgiven and others too need to be forgiven in regard of whether or not they realize they’re wrong. Bishop reminded me, humble. Stay humble. As humble as Jesus is. Who washes the feet of his disciples. A servant. A servant who obey his master full heartedly.

Reminding myself to be humble all the time, to forgive again and again, to live by His grace from day to day. To love as much as I can to everyone that I meet. To see oneself as who Christ see them as. To love oneself as that precious child of God who He love so much. To understand oneself from the inside out. The inner them that only God understands. In that way, I remind myself to love he or she as much as I can.

As God who forgiven me, love me, who see the me that others don’t, that is grace. And I shall practice what I learn and practice this grace that have change my life and prayerfully it will change the life of many.

See oneself through the eyes of God. The inner man matter most.

Live today to the fullness. Fight against the emotion, run a good race and prayerfully it will end well.

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Life is not easy. Never will. We go through so much challenge in life, sometimes, the challenge in one day is just good enough to make you suffer, maybe not physically but emotionally.

Seeing others around me suffer day to day for their life. Hearing people who is going through hard time in life. Sickness and death, relationship, there’s always something someone is suffering from.

Seeing others suffer the inner them is just so sad to see. I’ve been hurt, I’ve been breakdown, I felt those emotionally suffering, confusion, those hurt and pain in the hurt. The feeling of a sharp knife just hit your heart and being pull out, that kind of emotional suffer. It’s just too much.

I’ve been there. All those pain deep in the heart. Crying all your heart out but yet time is needed to so called being over with it. Not easy at all.

Today, I decided to give my very best to live my life to the maximum, to live my life as if I’m going to die tomorrow. To bring love, to spread God’s love to everyone that I meet and grab hold of every single opportunity there is to love.

There’s nothing much my life can offer. Nothing. I make mistake everyday. Being judge by others all the time. The feeling of always, always not doing a good job all the time. Those pressure. But, there’s so many people out there who suffer more than this. The inner man suffer. The struggle that one person might be going through maybe is 10× what I’ve been through. Nope, I’m not gonna complain.

I am nothing, i have nothing. But love. Everyday i ask that may God use me to the fullness. May He use me to spread His mighty love to others around me. Not for my glory, but for His. For people who might be suffering in life to know that, hey! there’s still hope! Love does exist! there’s still God.

To learn to love every moment when opportunity comes, it’s a choice. Nope, I don’t always made a wise choice, but I’ll always remind myself to love. Some choices are harder to be made simply because not everyone is easy to be loved. But what if that opportunity only comes once in a life time? I’ll regret at the end of the day. I remind myself to choose to love. Choose to love. Yes, i do fail  thousand times. But that doesn’t buy me a ticket of excuse. I just have to remind myself to ask God for forgiveness and move on. Sometimes moving on seems like the longest process ever. Hold on.

Not a superhero in physical body nor heart. My heart breaks a million times yet it brings me through until today. Seeing others suffering in different ways especially in their heart is just heart breaking. I just pray that I’m able to spread love to them as much as i can. Save them Lord, I pray.

Dream as if you’ll live forever and live as if you’ll die tomorrow. Don’t worry, I’m ok, not going to die tomorrow. But look, i have no idea how tomorrow will be, who am I gonna meet, what am I gonna do, where am I gonna be. So I’m just doing my very best to grab hold of every opportunity i get to spread love. The fact that I have a relationship with whoever that I meet. Family, friends, strangers and all those I’m connected to, it’s a miracle to have an relationship with all of you out of the millions of people. Am not going to let go of every opportunity i can to spread love and i choose to not let little thing gets into the way to spread this mighty love of God. Don’t wanna regret. If i have to take a flight to see someone very important in life, I’ll work and pray hard to get it done.

Just few weeks ago I lost my beloved uncle in sudden. Shock, sad. Breakdown. Just one week before he passed. I was actually asking my mom about him, cos i miss him so much. I was planning to go see him but before i even get to do that, he pass away. Regret?Yes. Now i miss him even more than never. I learn that, if there’s opportunity to spread love, don’t hesitate. Spread God’s love simply just by being there. Good enough. Love through action.

Now, for every opportunity there is for me to choose to love, I’ll choose to love. No, i don’t expect you to do the same. It’s just what i learn and my personal commitment to God to choose to love. Because that’s all i can do and know to do.

I come with nothing and leave with nothing but His love that touch different hearts throughout the process. I choose to love.

God love us all very much.
Love Your Life.

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My nephew said Peter and Jane likes each other.

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It’s so windy!!!

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Let Them See You 

Take away the melodies
Take away the songs I sing
Take away all the lights
And all the songs You let me write
Does the man I am today
Say the words You need to say?

Let them see You in me
Let them hear You when I speak
Let them feel You when I sing
Let them see You 
Just let them see You in me

Who am I without Your grace?
Another smile, another face
Another breath, a grain of sand
Passing quickly through Your hand
I give my life, an offering
Take it all, take everything

Let them see You in me
Let them hear You when I speak
Let them feel You when I sing
Let them see You
Just let them see You in me

With every breath I breathe
I sing a simple melody
But I pray they’ll hear more than a song
In me, in me

Let them see You in me
Let them hear You when I speak
Let them feel You when I sing
Let them see You

Let them see You in me
Let them hear You when I speak
Let them feel You when I sing
Let them see You
Just let them see You in me
Just let them see You in me

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Welcome baby Abner!!! Congrats Tim and June!!